Write Stuff

I really, really, really would like to see my story published in a book. As in, I'm aching for it. I hope it happens this year. I'm taking steps to achieve this goal, but things are happening too slow. Or maybe I'm just impatient. I've even gotten a rejection letter from a publishing company weeks ago, but strangely enough, I wasn't discouraged. Just a bit miffed, maybe.

On some days, I think there's nothing else I want to do but to gather material for stories and just sit down and write, write, write. But on other days, writing is the last thing I ever want to do.

I guess it's obvious which day I'm having now.

Self Surprise

I've always detested selling. For me I've pictured selling as forcing (or more nicely put, convincing) people that whatever you're offering is actually a basic need. I can never be that convincing. So for me, a career in business (or selling) was out of the question.

Enter life after Probe. Spanky and I thought of putting up Monsterbites. Fast forward to a year later. Yes, we're still making sandwiches, but I don't think we're really actively marketing it. We've pared down our sandwich making to once a week, supplying to the same badminton place we've been catering to for a year. The business (which was supposed to be our main source of income) became our sideline. Heck, we earn more by being employees.

But a week ago, meeting my highschool friend changed my perspective. She had designed some blouses and because of her unexpected pregancy, she needed help in selling them. And I surprised myself by volunteering my services. This meant real selling. As in going to friends and showing the shirts and convincing them to buy. Was I up for that?

Now these shirts (more like blouses with t-shirt material) have low necklines. I never wear those types. I'm more of the standard baby-tee girl. But when I tried selling, I had to wear one of these shirts to show how they looked like. With a trusty push-up bra underneath, I sold those shirts. I mustered enough courage to actually wear plunging! And guess what, I didn't look too bad.

Now, I have sold 7 shirts and have orders for 17 more. Looks good on paper, but actually when I've computed my earnings, they only amount to my gas fare for a week. Oh well. But the more important thing is I've realized that I can actually sell. And selling is not an entirely evil thing. I do get fulfillment from having satisfied customers. And those blouses do look purty.

Needing some Kneading

I feel like I want to stay in bed all day. I always feel this way after over-sleeping. Last night, I was in bed at 7 pm and 15 minutes later, I was blissfully in dreamland. Blame it on the massage, I say.

Yesterday, after my meeting in Makati, I decided to check out the full-body massage of Urban Oasis, a hole-in-the-wall spa somewhere in Teacher's Village. (Yes, I'll forever be a Q.C. girl) I've been massage-less for several months now, actually close to a year. Two days ago, my mom and I planned to have a massage-- my treat 'coz it was Mother's day. But when we called up Aling Tere (a home-service masseuse for only P200), we found out that she broke her arm and is undergoing operation. But her daughter assured us that she'll be back in business in a week. A one-handed massage? Hmm, I don't think so.

So I went to the Q.C. house-turned-spa and tried out their "therapeutic massage." It was pricier but at that moment, it was worth it. Massages, for me, are therapeutic not just because they knead the knotted muscles, but also because...well, I just like being lovingly touched. Well, of course the masseuse didn't really "love" me but her palms had such a tender way of rhythmically smoothing out my tired body. It seemed that her hands were saying, "Relax. We're here to take care of you. We won't hurt you." One time, when I was in Sonia's garden, in the middle of a back massage, I could feel my eyes filling up with tears. Just because the massage felt so loving. Aah, the healing power of touch. Drama extraordinare.

So today, I'm totally relaxed. Too relaxed that the fact that no one has posted in my tagboard doesn't bother me at all.

Rrrrrrrright.

Walang paalam na isinuot. Buti hindi napunit--regalo ko pa man din sa inaanak ko.

Back in the Bloggin' Game

So I haven't posted for over a month. But it doesn't mean na walang nangyayari sa akin. Ito ang mga natutunan ko sa nakaraang buwan.

1. Ang sarap-sarap ng halo-halo ng Razon sa Pampanga. Alam mo yun, walang masyadong sahog, yung tipong OA na sahog, pero malinamnam pa rin. Meron lang siyang saging, niyog, leche flan, milk at ayon nga kay Spanky, isang special, secret ingredient. Ano kaya yun?

2. Kaya ko palang magtrabaho para sa pera. Yun na yun. How else can you explain working in a government company for the past 7 months? Pero yun nga, magre-replay yung show ng isang season, so hindi ako kikita for mga 2 months, unless tumanggap ng segment producer (gasp!) duties.

3. Pag may nakita kang isang bagay na gustong-gusto mo at may pera ka naman, bilhin mo na! Goodbye, Zero 7 sa Li Jiang. Bibili ba ako ngayon sa halagang P500 o ibuburn ko na lang yung kay Abi? Problema, ayaw tumugtog ng pirated ang cd player ko.

4. Hindi na pareho ang metabolism ko ngayon compared to last year. Dati, maski kumain ako nang marami today, gigising ako with a flat stomach. Nowadays, pag kumain ako ng kaunti today, gigising ako with a preggy stomach. Ngayon pa naman ako nag-iipon ng lakas na loob na mag-two piece. Unfair talaga.

5. Posibleng hindi matupad ang pangarap kong magperform with a band. Lalo na't kung wala akong ginagawang mga hakbang patungo rito. Gusto ko, rhythm guitar. Pero nawala na yung mga dating kalyo sa daliri gawa ng pagtugtog ng mga complicated chords.

6. Nagtatrabaho ako sa TV pero hindi ako mahilig manood ng TV. Actually, dati ko pa ito alam. Gusto ko lang isulat kasi aliw. Mas gusto kong magbasa ng libro.

7. KSP pala ako. Pacool-cool lang ako dati pero deep inside, naku, baby rin pala. Yakker.

So bakit nagpopost na ako ng tagalog? Alaskado na naman ako kay Spanky nito. Kasi feel ko lang. Parang mino-mock ko ang sarili kong blog. Enjoy naman. :)