Shenti

Sometimes I wish I don't remember things well. I don't know why I remember small details (while I forget the more important stuff) in everyday things. I'm like this memory-keeper who's burdened with remembering stuff others have forgotten. And it sucks to be so affected by all these little things because then it makes me wonder-- do I have a life?

I love it when, for a change, I don't remember the name of the familiar-looking person who has greeted me in the mall. When the greeter (or the greetee) doesn't remember my name, sometimes I pretend I don't remember hers (or his) either--when in fact, I can recall a dozen details about her, casually dropped in some past, random conversation.

I admit, I forget a whole lot of other things. But I remember that at 3 years old, I looked up at the window, and gazed at our papaya tree in our yard. It was dusk, and the tree was being slowly engulfed by shadow. And as I froze that instant, I remember vowing to myself that I'd always remember that moment no matter what. And everyday, I practiced remembering it until I didn't have to practice anymore.

I guess I learned how to remember things too soon.

Cling Clang

I've become so clingy, I can't stand it. What in the world has happened to me? I used to be all ice and steel. Oh sure, I got fazed or devastated, but at least I didn't show it. Now, I bare my soul without meaning to, and my emotions get the better of me.

It's hard to learn new things. But sometimes, I think it's harder to re-learn things. Nonchalance perchance. Me, of all people. I won the Deadma Queen Award in our College CommRoast for cripes' sake!

But I guess I'm relieved that I am capable of changing.

Buzzzzz

I've been very busy this past month. Last night, I've just finished a tiring edit and this morning, I'm waiting for the grocery store to open so I can rush in and buy ingredients for our sandwiches. Once the sandwiches are made and delivered, I will rush to a meeting then finally, to the badminton game later tonight.

I've been very busy with work and right now, planning trips. Yehey! Boracay, Bohol, Vietnam and China! Hope they'll all push through! Of course, indulging in travel would not only mean spending, but also losing money, since I'll be giving up work days which are opportunities to earn. *Sigh* That's how freelance work works! But I'd like to think I deserve all that travel.

Here's to being part of the workforce!